I remember when I use to be so happy with what I was. The way I spoke, the way I looked, the way I thought. Just everything. Simply the way I carried myself. But somewhere along the way I’ve lost that. I can’t look in a mirror without some criticism wether it’s inside or outside. I can’t be confident and I can’t trust a single soul. Wether it’s life experience or a change of mind set I cannot stand this version of myself. I don’t want to lose who I am to insecurity. I don’t want to lose myself to the nights that I cannot sleep. It’s pathetic I post these things on my blog…probably, but I figure that telling anyone this shit is pointless. It’s all in my head and it can’t be fixed with some well thought out words or a hug. I want to feel good enough for myself. I want to feel like I am worth it to anyone. I just don’t know how to fix it. Maybe I’m just crazy. Maybe this is just a run on of babble that won’t matter in the morning. I’m just annoying. Idk.
i’m basically a clingy needy piece of shit that just wants to cuddle and to sleep and to watch stupid movies and to make out with you. oh and i also want you to play with my hair until i fall asleep
I’ve mastered the art of not giving a fuck while simultaneously caring way too much